Too Much to Ask
I have been artless in many ways lately.
My time has been spent playing Elder Scrolls IV, chillin with girl and drinking myself retarded.
I have been artless in my persuit of girl, I have not been making any art, and I have been artlessly neglectful of my self.
This is changing. I have restarted martial arts with the Master that piqued my interest in the very beginning, I had the desire today to make art on paper and the computer, and I've been thinking about Hadri and the other projects off and on for the last five days.
Girls suck you dry, then leave your parched husk to bake in the sun, praying for rain.
I have an inside source for the workings of girls. She has kids as old as I am, but is probably 10 years younger than my mom. She points out little things that you notice, and then expounds upon them from the mind of a woman who has raised a child and seen her child raise a child.
The cost of the ability to create life is high. Hormones are never stable, pain is constant, but the pleasure is tenfold. A woman's entire body is an eroginous zone. I won't hesitate to tell you that I like to be caressed as well, but you run a finger lightly down my arm and I don't get wet.
You know, the society of sex is unspoken, and this leads to a lot of people abusing it without due recourse.
Also to do with this is the level of self-worth each person has.
for instance, I love to cuddle. I love to run my hands over every curve on a woman's body, from the earlobe to where the neck meets the shoulder to the curve of the back to the waist and hip, and other more widely talked about zones. I love to kiss, I love going down on girls.
I don't do this in any hope that others will do this to me. In fact, most girls won't reciprocate these things. They think that guys want sex and then their obligations are done.
I want a girl who likes to touch me. I live by the golden rule, but the problem is, not too many other people do. I don't do these things so that I will get them in return, I do these things because I love to do them. It would just be nice if someone did decide to return these favors.
Touch others like you want to be touched
kiss others like you want to be kissed
do your best for others, so that others will do their best for you
If I get head(which by the way, has been forEVER ago...) I always return the favor.
I'm not a perfect person. Hell, I'm not even good, but I try to be, and I'm constantly working towards it. I'm not talking about the kind of good that one attributes to boy scouts and ministers, Im talking about being good at the things I think are good. My morals are a bit looser than my grandmother would like, but you know what, That's my choice. The only person that is hurt by my actions is me. I dont' hurt people if I can help it, I don't kill people. I don't steal, lie or cheat.
I have sex with people I like, I drink a lot, I smoke, I do drugs every once in a while. I've been known to blow things up or set them on fire, I've done graffitti.
I go to pagan firtility festivals where people walk around naked and have gratuitous protected sex with multiple partners. I like to fight, but I don't do it often. I hate people who wrong me, and if given sufficient motive, will exact revenge immediately, though if I have a bit of time, i usually get over the vengance stage and move on to whatever next stage there is. I hate cops. I have plans for world domination that will put a lot of people out, but will make the general populace more safe.
I think I'm better than a lot of people. I'm arrogant, aloof, and sometimes scared.
There are things about me I hate that drive me to majorly self destructive behavior.
My point is, I am my own person, and I make decisions based upon my own experiences, not those things that have happened to me, or to spite someone else, or out of fear.
I want to be treated like my own person, and that is something that is rarely found in the female population. they either want to controll you, use you, or have nothing to do with you.
I'm looking for a genuine girl who I enjoy being around, who wants to be around me. I want this girl to be in it for her, and in it for me. I want the love of a genuine girl.
I guess that's too much to ask.
My time has been spent playing Elder Scrolls IV, chillin with girl and drinking myself retarded.
I have been artless in my persuit of girl, I have not been making any art, and I have been artlessly neglectful of my self.
This is changing. I have restarted martial arts with the Master that piqued my interest in the very beginning, I had the desire today to make art on paper and the computer, and I've been thinking about Hadri and the other projects off and on for the last five days.
Girls suck you dry, then leave your parched husk to bake in the sun, praying for rain.
I have an inside source for the workings of girls. She has kids as old as I am, but is probably 10 years younger than my mom. She points out little things that you notice, and then expounds upon them from the mind of a woman who has raised a child and seen her child raise a child.
The cost of the ability to create life is high. Hormones are never stable, pain is constant, but the pleasure is tenfold. A woman's entire body is an eroginous zone. I won't hesitate to tell you that I like to be caressed as well, but you run a finger lightly down my arm and I don't get wet.
You know, the society of sex is unspoken, and this leads to a lot of people abusing it without due recourse.
Also to do with this is the level of self-worth each person has.
for instance, I love to cuddle. I love to run my hands over every curve on a woman's body, from the earlobe to where the neck meets the shoulder to the curve of the back to the waist and hip, and other more widely talked about zones. I love to kiss, I love going down on girls.
I don't do this in any hope that others will do this to me. In fact, most girls won't reciprocate these things. They think that guys want sex and then their obligations are done.
I want a girl who likes to touch me. I live by the golden rule, but the problem is, not too many other people do. I don't do these things so that I will get them in return, I do these things because I love to do them. It would just be nice if someone did decide to return these favors.
Touch others like you want to be touched
kiss others like you want to be kissed
do your best for others, so that others will do their best for you
If I get head(which by the way, has been forEVER ago...) I always return the favor.
I'm not a perfect person. Hell, I'm not even good, but I try to be, and I'm constantly working towards it. I'm not talking about the kind of good that one attributes to boy scouts and ministers, Im talking about being good at the things I think are good. My morals are a bit looser than my grandmother would like, but you know what, That's my choice. The only person that is hurt by my actions is me. I dont' hurt people if I can help it, I don't kill people. I don't steal, lie or cheat.
I have sex with people I like, I drink a lot, I smoke, I do drugs every once in a while. I've been known to blow things up or set them on fire, I've done graffitti.
I go to pagan firtility festivals where people walk around naked and have gratuitous protected sex with multiple partners. I like to fight, but I don't do it often. I hate people who wrong me, and if given sufficient motive, will exact revenge immediately, though if I have a bit of time, i usually get over the vengance stage and move on to whatever next stage there is. I hate cops. I have plans for world domination that will put a lot of people out, but will make the general populace more safe.
I think I'm better than a lot of people. I'm arrogant, aloof, and sometimes scared.
There are things about me I hate that drive me to majorly self destructive behavior.
My point is, I am my own person, and I make decisions based upon my own experiences, not those things that have happened to me, or to spite someone else, or out of fear.
I want to be treated like my own person, and that is something that is rarely found in the female population. they either want to controll you, use you, or have nothing to do with you.
I'm looking for a genuine girl who I enjoy being around, who wants to be around me. I want this girl to be in it for her, and in it for me. I want the love of a genuine girl.
I guess that's too much to ask.
posted by Hadrian: Dark One at 9:57 AM
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