Thoughts on life

The more i get to know some people, the less I really want anything to do with them. It's amazing how you can get so deep into a conversation with someone for hours, enjoy the time, and then talk to someone else for a few minutes and count the few better than the many.

There realy isn't an anchor in my life. Sure, I have moral anchors, but when it comes to making a decision about something I have no base point. Especially when I start to make one, take a few steps toward it, then decide the other way, take a few steps, then forget where the starting point was.

I was alking to a lady i work with the other day who's got kids older than me and has the level of enlightenment that comes with knowing as much as one can about all the facets of life.
She told me something that I thought was rather funny. "Guys always resent having to grow up." She also said 'never marry a girl that is between the ages of 25-30. They will hate you shortly thereafter. They're afraid of where their going, and angry at their mothers that they're not where they want to be yet.'

This makes me laugh, because I can thingk of five girls I know off the top of my head that are my age and have already been engaged or are married. I just thought of three more.
It seems as if they seek a point of being that society says they should be at, if only to keep up impressions. It's merely a step to take to let the world know that you fit in, while the inner discussion goes back and forth. Once they figure things out, they can go from where they are, or where society says they should be. So find a guy and marry him. If it sucks, go away, if its cool, then maybe that's what you should have done anyway.

I just want to find someone who's on the same page.

I guess the whole deal is this.
what i thought was a date tomorrow apparently isn't. Fine.
However, on the other path, if I willingly submit myself to something I know will cause unfathomable amounts of strife down the road, does that mean I've fallen too far? does that mean i've given up?

The thing is, Girl A is cool in a down-to-earth kinda way, but seems to be at odds with life.
Girl B is Hot as Hell, but has so much baggage when a relationship starts that it's almost not worth it.
Girl A is cool, and seems cool to chill with
Girl B tosses me around on the tides, and makes me want more.
Girl A has a kind of personality that is very close to mine, inasmuch as there really isn't much that doesn't get under our skin.
Girl B Is interested in the same stuff, is mysterious enough to make me want her, and has abilities that are at least in the same realm as mine. She plays the cello. Very well, i might add. She has the sort of faith that is in tune with my own, inasmuch as she's not exactly sure what she beleives aside from the core points.
Girl A has never waivered. This is good, but i don't want it getting to the point where I feel lessened because of it.

I just can't tell myself that I haven't "fallen" for girl B, and Girl A hasn't been able to turn my head in any meaningful way.

The bigger problem is the matter of how i meet and fall for people. It always comes in twos. There is always a decision to be made, and unlike Lee Adama in the new BSG, I never seem to make the right choice.
Two outcomes are standard for me. When two girls present themselves as options, the first outcome is fucking it up with both, and ending up alone. the other is making the wrong decision.
Unfortunately, the wrong decision is never the same action. Circumstances present themselves and I act upon them, and then, once there is no going back, I find out it was the worse of the two outcomes.