Will Work For Food
This is one of those times when I question whether or not I am a worthwhile person.
Stacking up faults like bricks, building a wall to hide behind should I find an answer I don't like; knowing that building the wall is yet another brick inandof itself, and that the answer I already know is one that will make me both want to hide behind and destroy said wall.
If I am questioning this, how is another person who is trying to figure me out NOT questioning this?
Josh(a friend larkin keeps bringing to Pint Night) told me last night that every time he talks to me, he likes me more and more. This is great, he's cool, but I wish Larkin would say something like that.
there are things in my life that make me wonder what good I bring to others. My life has become so close to stagnant that I can smell the fetid water. I have plans, goals and aspirations, I am working toward these things, but for some reason it feels like no matter how many steps I take, and how often or quickly, I'm still watching others shoot past me. I am a snail trying to be a rabbit, and it's killing me.
I just need to accomplish something and get back into school, and then worry about dating, One of my main goals is losing weight, and as much as I hate to admit it, I am a fat man, and we have harder times getting girls.
Alex has his black sash, and is teaching at another school, I am one of his students, and a prospective assistant instructor; so the weight loss, the publishing, and next semester will all come in time.
Yet I want these things now, and I want the other thigs that come with it now. My life has blown a tire, and I'm struggling to replace it while everyone else is driving to where they're going.
Stacking up faults like bricks, building a wall to hide behind should I find an answer I don't like; knowing that building the wall is yet another brick inandof itself, and that the answer I already know is one that will make me both want to hide behind and destroy said wall.
If I am questioning this, how is another person who is trying to figure me out NOT questioning this?
Josh(a friend larkin keeps bringing to Pint Night) told me last night that every time he talks to me, he likes me more and more. This is great, he's cool, but I wish Larkin would say something like that.
there are things in my life that make me wonder what good I bring to others. My life has become so close to stagnant that I can smell the fetid water. I have plans, goals and aspirations, I am working toward these things, but for some reason it feels like no matter how many steps I take, and how often or quickly, I'm still watching others shoot past me. I am a snail trying to be a rabbit, and it's killing me.
I just need to accomplish something and get back into school, and then worry about dating, One of my main goals is losing weight, and as much as I hate to admit it, I am a fat man, and we have harder times getting girls.
Alex has his black sash, and is teaching at another school, I am one of his students, and a prospective assistant instructor; so the weight loss, the publishing, and next semester will all come in time.
Yet I want these things now, and I want the other thigs that come with it now. My life has blown a tire, and I'm struggling to replace it while everyone else is driving to where they're going.
posted by Hadrian: Dark One at 11:51 AM
1 Comments:
First off, for many things that ail us, time really is the only cure. The problem is that there is also WORK invloved during that time.
But if there's one thing I've learned recently, it's about people. Relationships are key to keeping us sane. We are social creatures, and whoever tells you otherwise is feeding you bull. For me, almost all of my favorite memories involve my closest friends, you included. Remember what Spider Robinson said: Shared pain is lessened, shared joy is increased.
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